This represents how my self esteem is divided up right now. That is 2/3 appearance based judgements.
This is where I would love to be in 6 months time. I want more things to matter in life. I want to judge how I feel about myself more on who I am as a person, what I enjoy and what affect I have on the world around me, not solely on face value. I don’t judge other people by their appearances so I shouldn’t judge myself by mine. On this appearance in general still features as weight will always matter to me but I want to take more care of my skin and make up and clothes and let them define me more than the body that resides beneath.
Physical complications:
- changes to my hair, skin and nails
- fatigue, lethargy
- headaches
- electrolyte imbalance
- parasthesias (tingling/numbness feelings)
- heart irregularities
- delayed stomach emptying
- bloating, gas and stomach pain
- reflux
- dehydration
-
muscle cramps
Psychological complications:
- depression
- social anxiety
- worrying
- obsessive compulsive symptoms
- mood swings
- difficulties with judgment and decision making
- social isolation
- decreased self-esteem
- self-harm behaviours
Ab intra vi et animo
From within with heart and soul
I am Emma, I have had anorexia since I was 13 years old and now at nearly 18 I am finally fighting for recovery for real.
As well as intensive outpatient therapy I am working my way through a challenging recovery work book and my aim of blog is to post my answers to the book so I can keep a record of how I feel and who I am, so when I am futher along in my recovery I can look back as see how far I have come. This blog is about recovery, it isn’t going to be a straight line or easy but hopefully it will end in recovery!
